My Thoughts

yes..

2006-11-11T14:50:00.000+08:00

yes.. com still down

yes.. falling sick

yes.. body aches

yes.. tired

have a lot of things to do and there's no reason why i would hate it.

have a lot of things to think about and i have been missing 1 close gal pal very badly who keeps me sane by listening to me and she called me from overseas to say hi to me. she will finally be back this weekend.

have a lot of sleep to catch up on since i have been very tired and my fever has been coming up & down these 2 days. will need to see the doctor if my fever comes back.

have a lot of checking of information that i need to do but there's no chance of me doing it due to lack of time and no PC.

computer down

2006-10-25T21:45:00.000+08:00

my computer is down.

it refuses to start up and keep on going back to the same screen asking me whether i want to start up using the "Use last configuration" or "Safe mode" or "Start windows normally"

Wah piang!!!! i re-started soooo many times till i just give up.

sianz!!

have to borrow my younger sis's laptop to go through my email.

anybody know why???

Everything good?

2006-10-23T01:17:00.000+08:00

Sometimes the smallest gestures touches me the most.

The sms or a call to show that you remembered me.

But sometimes, I think that I had rather prefer to keep the way things are since every single conversation will lead to an disagreement.

**

On the way back in the bus, I had many flashbacks.

Good memories and also bad memories

Sad memories and also sweet memories

It makes me wonder why I am suddenly nostalgic about the past.

**

I guess it's abit too late but it's never too late to say thanks.

Thanks for your well wishes & gifts for my birthday.

Those wishes kept me smiling and helped me to continue to smile even when I was angry and upset.

**

I hope everything's good for everyone :)

Take care

OFFFFFFFFF

2006-09-22T23:10:00.000+08:00

Next friday, I get to claim time off and I can have a good rest before my busy 2 following weeks.

Knowing that I can get to be off is so good because I get to finally relax for three days in a role.

And I am supposedly to act as a tourist. Heh

tired

2006-09-20T22:34:00.000+08:00

I am so tired

*prays that I do not get sick*

Soft Spots

2006-09-19T00:25:00.000+08:00

There will always be people whom you will have a soft spot for and there will be people who will also have soft spot spots for you too.

Have you exploited it before to your advantage?

I know girls who cleverly use it to their advantage. I also want to use it but no soft spots for me to exploit.

I also realise I will always have soft spots for certain friends of mine and of course ex-boyfriends who will make me go all protective and concern about them. I was reading an entry which made my heart wrench because this galfriend of mine whom we are no longer talking was writing about her pain. I guess after so much has happened, I still hope that she can move on with her life. I will only give my blessings in silence and wish her well.

On another note, my sister frenie told me a very funny joke and I laff till I peng over a common person we used to know. Makes me laff non-stop.

Back to dreamy land & I got a long long day at work AHEAD!!

tired tired

2006-09-17T00:49:00.000+08:00

Today's shopping trip was quite a disappointment. The shoes I like didn't have my size. The colours of the shoes that I didn't like have my size. I am so lucky not to spent money on shoes because I cannot buy them.

I still managed to get a bag though. At least I got something and not go home empty handed.

I didn't realise how much I miss cynthia till I see her today. All the catching up and all the gossips. All my thinkings and all my of fears. It's great to have friends like her to be around me. She got me something from body shop which is my favourite stuff and she still remembers what I used to tell her what I like. I got her a blouse and she was so surprised since I paid for her after knowing that she likes the blouse while she's in the fitting room. That surprise smile from her face was priceless. Heehee

I hate to think that the weekend is going to over soon. Booooo hooooo hooooo

Will be out with my mother and cousin tomorrow & luckily it's in the afternoon so that I can still SLEEP in late especially when I usually wakes up at 6.15am in the morning for weekdays.

Hope to buy stuff tomorrow :P & I am still very tired from all the walking. *yawns*

shopping list

2006-09-16T11:46:00.000+08:00

I have a few things in my mind that I wish to get today for my shopping spree

1. Hobo Bag
2. Bags
3. Low-heeled shoes
4. Tops
5. Pants

Especially after pay day, it puts me in a very good mood to go shopping. Muahahaha

Orchard road, here I come.

:P

boast

2006-09-13T21:32:00.000+08:00

Dun boast too much because if you have the capabilities, people will see it.

Why boast when the people around you will know the abilities you have?

I know someone who boasted she sang at a pub overseas and when you hear the voice of the self-proclaimed pub singer at a KTV lounge, you wondered why did she think she could cover up her boasts.

Her singing was not only average. It was soft like a mini mouse.

If you have got what it takes to be, there's no need to exclaim to proof it because ultimately people will notice your abilities

If only she realises that she can't cover up her lack of abilities at all.

2006-09-10T21:18:00.000+08:00

I have been thinking alot recently.

thinking about what I really want.

thinking about what I really wish to do.

while looking through those available degree courses, I couldn't see where I am going.

it's strange how disconnected I feel

but I really felt blessed when my parents gave me their blessings in terms of reaching out to me for my study loan in the near future. that gesture make me smile :)

because I want to place my emphasis in my work now, my studies will be put aside till next year.

so I still have one year to consider whether I wish to futher my skills in which area. 1 year seems far now but I know that time passes faster than I have expected it.

1 year to decide where & how I should move closer to my goals.

Buying Mode

2006-08-20T18:53:00.000+08:00

I am actually in the mood for shopping not only today but almost very frequently.

But I have been spending alot these days so I have to start toning down my spending. Cause I have to save up for a lot on all my wants. Hee Hee. All the things I want is not a need though.

I am still considering whether to change my handphone. Hmmm. I got my sights set on the N80 though. As usual, I am sticking to Nokia phones as I have been using it all along and I am just a Nokia fanatic unless when there are problems. Haha. *touchwood*

I have been looking for a bag. I think the bag design that I like is called "hobo bag". I only managed to saw one that was quite nice in espirit. But I got alot of white bags already so I do not want to keep buying white bags. I wondered whether my friend's special discount is still available though. If yes, I might want to really consider it if they still have stock. Muahahaha

I am controlling myself not to look at clothes & shoes so that I will not be tempted to get anything yet. It's a torture to see but not buy.

Then there is also something I need to save for, DRIVING. At that time, got not much spare cash so I didn't continue yet. I was thinking of after getting my third month pay provided I am still surviving then I go & top-up the cash & start learning again.

Got so many things to buy and yet so little cash to spare!! That's so sad. Did I mentioned that I am hoping to go for a holiday next year? :P

Money Money Come!!!!!!

Youngest Sister & Me 2 -Fave

2006-08-06T00:19:00.000+08:00

This is actually my fave set of photos.. hehehe

Youngest Sister & Me 1

2006-08-06T00:06:00.000+08:00

Youngest Sister & Me

2006-08-05T23:58:00.000+08:00

Thanks

2006-08-02T21:34:00.000+08:00

Thank you sweeties for smsing/calling me to check on how I am.

It's really nice to know that people care.

But all I can say is that I am still in a good shape.

Pardon for my slow replies because I usually reply them after work :)

I am still adjusting myself for now.

Hope to meet up with you guys soon for dinner before my honeymoon period is over. Heehee

2006-07-20T23:21:00.000+08:00

Let it be let it be.

I just have a strange feeling about something. But I can't put it down to anything.

**

It's 5 days more to goodbye.

That's very fast...

& the date is approaching faster than I expect.

**

Got to go to a very far place to do my check-up instead of somewhere near where I stay. So sian. I don't understand why got people booked for almost 2 weeks in advance. SCARY.

But I am on leave tomolo.

YAY!

A break finally which I have been looking forward to.

Long winded

2006-07-15T01:45:00.000+08:00

It's going to be less than 2 weeks before I am going to leave the company already. It's kind of sad in a certain way. I am going to lose the familarity and I am going to face a total new environment with new bosses and colleagues.

I can't help but to start missing the little things that I have shared with my current colleagues and boss. My boss is very nice to us in many ways. I am having a very short break only as there will be a replacement coming in next week and I have to get her trained before I leave. There will be a company gathering before I leave. It will be a 3 in 1 gathering which includes farewell, introduction and birthday dinner all rolled into 1. Haha.

To say that I am completely ready is an understatement. I am gearing up for the new change and crossing my fingers. Time will tell whether I can cope. *Self movitation mode* *GO GO JIA YOU!!*

Less than 2 weeks to go....

**

I think I am so wrapped up in my own world at certain times. I hate being alone but yet I wished that I want to be alone to digress.

I have been thinking alot recently about the path that I want to move along. I have been wondering alot whether I am moving in the right direction or just moving for the sake of moving.

Besides career directions, I am thinking about my short term & long term goals. To reach my destination is not easy but I am not complaining though. I realise that there are certain restrictions in achieving my next target. I am thinking hard how to turn around that bend.

I hope to find that answer soon.

**

My granny's birthday is coming soon. We are going to celebrate for her this coming sunday. I am so happy to see her and the extended family soon.

Yippeeeee!

It's going to be eating & eating again. Haha.

**

I have not been sleeping well recently. I am hoping to catch up on my sleep later on tonight soon without any dreams.

I have been having strange dreams recently and yesterday was no exception. I dreamt that someone I know got married. But I forgot about it totally when I woke up and I do not know whether the person I know is the bride or groom. Haha.

**

I was talking to a friend yesterday about my experience with my best friend & a bunch of good friends which the friendships had gotten really sour.

Guess what? I saw one of them today and I pretended that I didn't see her.

I think it's ironic that we used to share the laughter and joy but things had to turn out this way and it seems that the paths which were once crossed becomes parallel.

It was not easy to make a certain decision to stop the friendships and stopped having them in your life. It was not easy for me to accept that the hurt caused during the quarrels had to happen twice. I cried over the loss but I also do not want to be crying again and again over the same issues. It was time to move on. But I did gave it a chance before.

It's not like I do not treasure friendships. In fact, I treasure friends alot even I do not say it outright. I enjoyed the different types of enjoyment or relaxation or emotional support that my friends give.

I think there's might be mis-communications or mis-intepretations with friends. I am glad that for Cynthia, we always have open discussions about how we feel and what we think. We work together and the chances of a clash is higher than for a usual good friend. It's not like we do not have unhappiness or clashes before but I dare to say that it's less than 3 times throughout the time I know her. We will talk to each other very soon letting off the bad blood sliding off within a few hours. We then discussed on how to settle our unhappiness by talking it through. We always give in to each other before even though we both are very strong-headed people.

It's good to have such a like-minded friend like her and I just started missing her even though I just saw her not long ago. Hee hee. Cos I know I will only see her during weekday nights or weekends after I leave the company.

I'm getting long-winded already like an auntie :P

2006-06-29T20:55:00.000+08:00

Finally, I have handed in my resignation letter. It was supposed to be tomorrow but it was brought forward to today because of certain circumstances.

I had delayed it for about 2 weeks after I got wind of my new job offer because of the fact that we are shifting office.

This was the change that I wanted to embrace but there are of course hesitations involved. I was worried of several factors. But if I am so afraid, I will be forever standing at the same position for the next few years. With new changes comes with new hopes, this is something I am hoping for. It's close to 4 years since I started there. It's time for me to embark on a new journey.

I guess the saddest thing that I think I can't bear is my current work environment. It's also the people around that I work with which makes me feel that it's almost my second home. I guess good times doesn't last forever.

I am moving forward and I will handle it well to the best of my abilities.

tired - shfting office

2006-06-23T23:14:00.000+08:00

FINALLY FINALLY

We have finally shifted office.

I am very smelly from all the sweating

My back is aching.

I am super tired

I just want to rest.

But CANNOT REST YET.

My new office is super duper messy.

Have to help out to do all the arrangements and unpacking.

My place is still very messy with all the files around.

I got alot of unpacking to do.

Tomolo also have to go back. Hope no need to stay till late.

Things in Place?

2006-06-21T23:04:00.000+08:00

I am going to receive my newly exchanged mp3 player and it was fair that the warranty was extended to 3 months.

Finally!!!

At least things are falling into place right now.

There will be changes soon in my current stable life.

I am looking forward to the change even though there are still some hesitation on my part.

But things have to be changed sooner or later and sometimes you never expected it even though you have anticipated it.

I hope the decision is right.

:))

btw: there are 2 happy gals and not just one.. Heehee.

24 Weird Things about me - Part 2

2006-06-05T10:55:00.000+08:00

I managed to come up with 12 more weird things. Actually, it's not really weird but rather facts about me.

1. I have short and stubby fingers even when I am tall. That is so super duper strange.

2. I have this strange habit of calling friends claiming that I am from a certain bank or etc. Usually, I give the game away because I laugh when I can hear my friends believing me. Heehee

3. I am easily prone to laughing over the slightest joke. I like to giggle over the slightest thing.

4. I am superstitious. There was one perfume that I used and whenever I used it, not so good things happened. The eerie thing was it happened only when I used that perfume. I know its just my mind but I couldnt help it. This goes for bags and clothes too.

5. I love to see cute guys dancing. Its like heaven seeing those cute tight butts move. I sound so UN-Innocent. Haha

6. I used to love to hum songs even when I am talking to people especially if I know the songs tune well

7. I love to peel the skin near my fingernails when I am nervous.

8. I have these weird cravings for Kinder Brueno forever. Its already for years that I always crave for this particular chocolate

9. I am an addict of Korean shows. I have been irritating my friends with my lup sup Korean words. Favourite words are Niang Niang (because of Da Chang Jin) I just love it when people cringe when I say that. Muahahaha

10. I used to love to identify gays. No offences to them but I just love the idea of guessing whether they are straight. My friends and I gave a nick to them by calling them 3 o clock

11. I love soppy sad songs and blast it when I am upset or angry. Somehow it makes me feels better.

12. I cry easily compared to usual people. But my tears are held back so much better compared to last time. Sometimes, people take the crying as a weakness. For now, my tears are no longer there when I am in an argument. But my tears still flow when I watch sad dramas

Finally done. *Relief* Haha.

24 Weird Things about me - Part 1

2006-05-31T23:19:00.000+08:00

Tagged by Ollie about 24 weird things about me. I will break it into 2 parts. Here's the first 12. Hopefully I can think of more. Not all are weird though :P

1. I love spicy food. It's not that strange except that my stomach is too weak to take too spicy stuff at night but yet I still ignore the disaster that's pending ahead. The very next morning, I will have tummy ache like crazy. But I still take spicy food just that I tend to take not so spicy food at night.

2. I am very particular about my facial skin. i just do the necessary cleansing, moisturising and masks. What I hate most is to see blackheads appearing on my skin and when I see that, you can see me scrubbing my face with masks

3. I adore facial products. I have too many in my box which has not been used yet. I always can't help to buy facial stuff just for the sake of having it even when I still have it. The most frequent item I buy is MASK. It works for me even though it's a home remedy.

4. My scars on my legs never seem to cure whether I put creams anot. Must be at night I subconsciously scratched it. DAMN..

5. I love prancing around in my room locked with music blasting away. I find it an enjoyment and stress release buster and of course with the curtains drawn.

6. I used to hate beer. That was until I tried the draft of several beers. I am a beer convert!!

7. If not for my pain intolerance, my scar on my face would be cured and then I won't be writing about it now. Talk about wrong decisions.

8. My sisters and I used to play tickling games and I was always bullied in the beginning. But I am damn scared of tickles which will get me laughing non-stop.

9. My youngest sister and I used to have to practise of tickling on our itchy spots on our hands for each other. The reason was because it's more shiok when the other party tickles it. Ku Chi Ku Chi

10. I need to sleep with the music playing if not, I will have sleepless nights.

11. I love reading but I am very cheapskate cos I do not like to buy them. I usually finishes my books very fast. Got no money to buy too. wahaha. But got sweet friends to lend it to me :)

12. I have a collection of female magazines which I am very particular about taking care of it. I hate it when the magazine is not being well taken of when reading it.

Complaint Queen

2006-05-28T22:56:00.000+08:00

I realise that I am like a complaint queen recently. Somehow, I can't help it but to give my fair share of comments due to the bad service rendered.

I think because I was in a customer service background before, the things that were said to appease most customers on a superficial level can't worked on me.

I wonder if it's due to PMSing which is why I am rather testy and the tolerance level is not as high as before.

One of them is Samsung.

My Samsung mp3 player issues are going to be resolved soon. For Samsung, I really applaud their services because after 2 written complaints, then I would hear from a manager. The important thing which I think for Samsung is that they handle complaints faster if a written complaint is given than a verbal complaint. That's the strangest logic I ever hear of because from a customer service point of view, you try to minimise your written complaints by trying to resolve the verbal complaints.

I think I am a difficult customer to handle once my tolerance drops. If not, I am usually pretty easy going. I am reasonable but when service staff push their luck too far, dun blame me for being a bitch.

Have you met with any terrible services before? Did it get you frustrated and angry because issues are not resolved?

New Project

2006-05-27T22:56:00.000+08:00

Whenever I started out a new project, I usually give myself a timeline for results. From having a timeline, I will estimate when the project is going to show results from the implementation. I guess all those previous marketing school projects did help afterall in a certain way.

For this project I am undertaking, I am looking at 3 months for the deadline. The project results will deeply affect how my next decision in my next step that I am going to take by end of August.

I am glad that I have decided to take things in my hands and tried to focus on new areas for my company which was not tapped in. It's not going to be easy but ultimately I wish to have new found satisfaction towards work.

Appreciate and thanks for all the advice regarding the certain issues I had in my mind. You know who you are. hee. It did helped me to see things in a wider or different angle which I might have missed out indirectly. It was not easy to decide but for the time being I am going to push back the decision to end of August.

I hope my foresight in this project really works. Wish me luck because I think Iwill need lots of it.

:)

Falling Sick

2006-05-21T11:01:00.000+08:00

I have been feeling woozy from the medicine yesterday and I have been sneezing again & again

DAMN IT

Feeling like an old woman with body aches too

I hope I will not sleep non-stop today again after the 16-17 hour sleep I had yesterday

I have to get well by tomolo!!!

Irritating Guys

2006-05-17T10:56:00.000+08:00

Before I start my preparing for my appointment today and be ready to get smack on my head *kidding*, I recalled a strange incident on my bus ride yesterday.

There were 2 guys who came up on the bus. One was in his late 20s early 30s. The other one was about early 50s. The older guy was irritating me to the max because he was preaching his ideas to the younger guy.

At that point, it felt like NAGGING. I was like, what the hell are you trying to show? That you know so much and better than the younger guy by alot.

The girl besides me was giving him a look too. We both sniggered together. I really pity that younger guy for having to hear this type of NONSENSE all this while.

Then again, it led me to think. Haven't we face this type of superiors before? I am thankful because throughout my work life *touch wood* I have never faced this type of superiors before as they are pretty much straight to the point.

And I forgot to mentioned that a certain classmate gave me a call just to ask me how to save the pictures from his digital camera. The most puzzling thing is that he even dared to ask me to go down to his house to help him sort his problems.

I looked like the IT helpdesk personnel meh. If it's a close friend, I wouldn't have minded to assist. But I am not even close and his house super far away.

I wasted almost 20 min of my time just trying to resolve his issue and without any headway because he couldn't know how to check.

That is irritating. And my youngest sister purposely ask me to put down the phone. lol. I think I am in an evurl mood recently.

wahaha

don't touch me!! :P

Long Weekend

2006-05-16T16:15:00.000+08:00

Fri was spend lazing around at home.

Saturday was really a busy day spend with my sister. We woke up at 7am just to go to the doctor. The doctor got alot of patients. Can queue up for about 3 hours lor the last time we went there.

We went there by cab because I didn't want to wait that long. We reached there about 7.55am after taking a cab there.

By the time the registration is done, we spend almost 2 hours there. We then went to Mac for our breakfast. I had cravings of pancakes. haha. We went over to Metro Tampines to check out some make up and then went to buy our tickets for Mission Impossible 3.

The movie was quite enjoyable and although I had some minor complaints about certain parts, generally it was good.

We went to Bugis to go buy my mummy's present for Mother's Day. In fact, we gave her 2 gifts this week and I know it made her grin non-stop when she saw the wallet and the watch. It felt good to see her smile and know that she can feel our love towards her even though we are naughty to her at times.

By the time, we shopped finished already. I was already breaking out in cold sweat. I don't even know why I felt this. I went out of my budget by buying makeup too. Must remember not to overspent.

Sunday was a day with my mummy's mummy which is my granny. I enjoyed the day even though there were periods which was boring.

But it was always fun to spend time with your cousins and also realise that I have grown old already. Wahaha.

I think I am stuck thinking that the cousins are never going to grow up. haha.

And I had fun making shihui pissed because of my preaching of finding jobs. I hate it when people are not making efforts in finding jobs especially when resumes are not send. I might be going out with her to update her wardrobe :P

Why do weekends always seems to end so fast?? I didn't have enough time to relax

It's going to be mid of the week soon and very soon it will be weekends again.. hehe

ps. I took so long to write this esp since I started writing it on mon.. I need more time.. hehe

My name is Kim Sam Soon & moving on

2006-05-10T23:11:00.000+08:00

The show I was watching and had completed was "My name is Kim Sam Soon". My youngest sister convinced me to watch this show and I really love it.

I fell in love with the show and was hooked after the first few epsiodes. It has the humor element which got me laughing besides feeling sad for the characters.

The few quotes which I posted recently were from the show itself. I find it very meaningful. Maybe it's because of love which I think is an universal theme which can reach out to everyone.

Here's one more quote which I felt for.

"Have you noticed that everyone else in the world seems to be moving forward and yet you seem to be stuck in the past. You're like a frozen clock, you need to change your batteries."

I felt like this before. When I felt out of love, I realised that while I was still stuck in the cocoon of mine swallowing my hurt & pain. The world is still moving and life still goes on. It's very hard to snap out of it. Cos I couldn't come terms to it.

Because I couldn't face the facts that it was over, I acted that I was happy and cheerful even when I am not. But I knew I wasn't over it.

Looking back, I couldn't understand or comprehend why I was caught in that vicious circle. It was so hard to move on. But it's so easy to preach to your friends to tell them to do what was right. I did that before many times for many friends but I also know that ultimately only we can help ourselves.

Wounds heal over time. The word is "Time". How long is the healing process that we need to heal each time we go through a break-up? The answer ultimately lies within our own hands and nobody else.

After wounds healed, they become a scar. A scar is to remind me of a memory that I used to had. I like to look back at times to reminisce about the good old times that I had but it's all in the past already and will be a chapter in my life

Even though that chapter and other chapters of my life has closed, I always look forward for new chapters of our lives. Sometimes, I know I am always too optimistic. But I know that no matter how big a problem is, there are ways to resolve it and I am reminding myself constantly about that.

FIGHTING! :P

Busy Bee

2006-05-09T20:58:00.000+08:00

I am a busy bee

I like it when I can take a breather at home

A break from knocking off work

I am shifting to *coughs* geylang soon.

My office is a mess right now

and there are many things around in my office

I dare not invite customers to my office now.

DAMN PAI SEH... haha

My job scope has changed gradually and I am out for meetings with my boss or either meeting up with my own clients.

I kind of liked the slight change in my job scope.

It gives me more drive but I can't chat on my job as often as last time. Muahahaha

I can forsee certain Saturdays burnt because of shifting office... sianzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Memories

2006-05-07T23:09:00.000+08:00

"Memories are memories. There's no strength in memories"

Shine

2006-05-07T23:06:00.000+08:00

"Things shine at first and then as time goes by they tend to fade away and eventually it's just not there anymore."

latest updatessssss

2006-05-04T00:38:00.000+08:00

My left arm is hurting.

I am suspecting that it has to do with the wrong sleeping position which leads my arm to feel this way.

I got my parents to apply medicine for me. Yes, I still sulk to them at times and it's nice to have your parents to fuss over you.

It just makes me feel treasured.

**

I received an sms from the friend today who used to make me so angry during a phonecall. After that "quarrel", I resolved to stop talking to him and also minimise the contact time we have.

I guess he might never understand why there's no phonecalls and smses from me anymore. I still regard him as a friend but I do not wished to feel affected when he refuses to grow up to face the problem.

A person who is older than me. A person who has went through 7 more years more than me. A person who refuses to think maturely. A person who can never take advice. A person who only knows how to complain but refuses to set objectives and move on from the mistakes he makes.

I guess the help I can give is already more than enough. I have tried to be in different roles to try to help.

But I realise the whole issue is he has never understood one very simple thing. He needs to stand up on his own. No matter what your friends say or tell you what to do, it is of no use if you refuse to try to move on.

I do hope that he realises what he's doing.

**

Went for a dinner with Cynthia and gang which mandrake and natsu mentioned in their blogs.

I didn't realise that I have went there before.

It was not the first time I have went there and I had memories coming back to me.

I went there with C before for dinner and drinks at the Piano Bar.

It's nice to actually chill out at the bar which they have live singing

The other time was with my ex-classmates who celebrated my birthday there before we went off to zouk

Those are the good old times

I realise that time really flies

**

Did I forget to mentioned that I am going to shift office again?

I am going to be so busy AGAIN.

Imagine all the packing and unpacking?? It's enough to give me a headache. Haha

In the meantime, I am working on a new project which I am trying to get results for it.

I am motivated to actually made it work even though it might be tough.

**

Off to my bed for now :)

Denial

2006-05-01T21:39:00.000+08:00

We deny that we're tired, we deny we are scared, we deny how badly we want to succeed, and most imporantly we deny that we are in denial. We only see what we want to see, and believe what we want to believe, and it works. We lie to ourselves so much that after awhile the lies start to seem like the truth. We deny so much that we can't recognize the truth right in front of our faces.

-Grey's Anatomy-

Just read this from a blog. I think it just says all in the quote.

Thoughts to Ponder

2006-04-30T20:36:00.000+08:00

"Let's love like we've never been hurt before.

Let's dance like no one is praising us.

Let's love like we've never been hurt before.

Let's sing like no one is listening to us.

Let's work like we don't need money for it.

Let's live like today is the doomsday."

I find this very meaningful when this was mentioned in a show I recently watched.

Sleepless Nights

2006-04-28T01:00:00.000+08:00

This long weekend is a godsent to me

I need to catch up on my sleep

There were so many times which I was so tired but I couldn't sleep.

I guess my mind is doing over-time

Had a rough time trying to FORCE myself to sleep

The worst thing is that I wake up feeling so tired and restless

Off to bed soon.. I hope

Grumblingssssss

2006-04-27T17:50:00.000+08:00

Have you ever caught a friend lying?

I have so far caught 2 of my close friends lying to me. There are times when I act dumb but I am not. Sometimes, I already have the answers but I just want to see what people will tell me. I guess it's such an interesting thing to happen to know the truth but seeing them lie through their teeth.

Sometimes, being too smart is not good.

Acting dumb is better

It's ok to lie but dun lie to me and not my other friends who know about it. That's really a no-no.

Want to lie to me but please lie to me smarter. Haiz

My plans are not going as smoothly as expected.

HMMM..

I guess I got to try harder and harder.

Wish me luck :P

new goals

2006-04-26T12:52:00.000+08:00

Basically, I have thought through what I want in my short-term goals and I have decided to currently push back my plans for my studies due to various factors.

I have weighed my options and decided to try to stick to my plan as close as possible. Sometimes plans are changed due to many reasons. It's unfortunate that I got to change my existing plan but I see it as a blessing in disguise.

Maybe I am self-delusional. Haha.

I do hope that I can achieve what I had hope for this year’s plan.

Take the lead

2006-04-20T23:26:00.000+08:00

I caught take the lead with Nicholle. It was a movie which got me laughing and cheering on the dark horses. The dancing scenes were pretty good to make me feel like jumping and prancing around.

Although, it was a pretty standard format. Teacher meets bad students. Wants to reform students through dancing. Students were resistant to idea initially and converted finally. Students starts learning. Students were "shamed" and gave up. Students took up dancing again and join compeitition.

I love the movie and it got me smiling though.

Go catch it if you are like me who likes movies with dancing as the main topic.

BTW. I love the second poster with Antonio in it. SEXY!!! It's such a turn on to see him smile :P

In a different light

2006-04-20T23:18:00.000+08:00

Don't make me lose my respect for you.

Don't make me look down on you

Don't make me wonder what you have become or all along you were like this but I didn't realise it.

Don't make me wonder why you have became someone who's conceited and think that you are such a smart ass when you are no longer that

Please don't make me look at you in a different light

Lost

2006-04-19T16:39:00.000+08:00

I am going to my favourite place tonight but with an ex-classmate to catch-up.

It's been a while since I went there. The place is full of wonderful memories.

Maybe I will go for cheesecake too. Yummy!

In a strange way, I am not at ease with myself.

Got so many things running through my head.

Am I crumbling under pressure?

I am not paying attention to anything.

It's like just aimless walking

Damn. I hate that feeling.

I feel lost & just lost.

I need to sit down and weigh my options again as I do not want to move in circles again.

Self Encouragement

2006-04-19T00:46:00.000+08:00

After a long day at work, it's good to drop everything off your mind and just relax.

I think it's time to remind myself to stay on the postive side no matter what comes into my path.

GO GO Jia You!!

Back to my bed for now.

Options

2006-04-18T16:00:00.000+08:00

I don't have much options

The money will be a big factor for me to actually decide the next move.

But I am just disappointed that the factor to hold me back is the monetary issue.

Time is running short.

I only have the end of the week to decide or next year to go through the hustle & bustle.

Wish me luck.

Wishing

2006-04-16T21:28:00.000+08:00

I have a simple wish

All I hope is that there is a chance

Once there's a chance given

I will do my best to make it work.

But I know that it's just a dream

Maybe it's wrong to dream an idealistic dream

But at least I dare to dream

Do you?

Pondering

2006-04-16T21:18:00.000+08:00

Suddenly my mind comes up with so many images

The good times

& also the bad times

That tinge of sadness that used to linger at the back of my tongue

That happiness that used to make me smile

That anger which makes my face burns up

All is over

Nothing lasts forever.

Sometimes forgetting might be so difficult compared to forgiving

Inside Man

2006-04-16T13:47:00.000+08:00

I think I am a movie freak. I just watched 3 movies in a row for this weekend.

I would start off with the lastest movie I just watched yesterday with my sister.

In a way, I am quite skeptical about Denzel Washington's movies. Maybe becuase I found it too slow & also typical. He has the good guy look and this time, he's acting as a policeman which was of no surprise to me. He's quite a charmer in this movie too with his clever antics.

For this movie, I am quite impressed with the plot of the story. It kept me intrigued.

The movie started with Clive Owen talking about a bank robbery stating why, who, when & how. The best part was about being imprisioned. There was an irony in his statement which I only got it at the end of the movie.

You then see the robbers disguising as painters and sealing off the bank. On the surface, it seems like a bank robbery. But what the robbers have in mind kept you guessing for a while. The bank robbers' leader is Clive Owen. He's really charming despite the stupid mask he has on his face.

He's clever by getting the hostages to dress up the same way as them and it's hard to tell each other apart when they have the same mask & outfit on. [This is the only spoiler I am going to mention]

You see a softer side of Owen when he was chatting to a little boy. I am in awe. Haha.

Jodie Foster looks as good as ever but it was a sad thing that she's just a supporting role in this movie.

The interesting thing is that there were flashbacks throughout the movie of Denzel & his fellow cop interviewing the hostages.

However I felt that this movie would be perfect if the motive of the robbers are further explained and why the target was being targetted besides getting the stuff they wanted. There are certain points which the movie was being slowed down by.

I would give 3.5 /5 for this movie for being able to make me sit at the tip of my seat and making me wonder what's going to happen next.

Go watch it if you like thinking thrillers.

Nicholle & Meeeee

2006-04-14T23:37:00.000+08:00

Here's yesterday photos which Nicholle & I took. Isn't she so sweet? Hehe

I miss her so much even though I just saw her

:)

Beautiful Day

2006-04-14T11:02:00.000+08:00

I miss those quiet times

I could feel the gentle breeze enveloping me

I could hear the leaves rustling near

I took a deep breath & smelled the fresh air

I smiled

It's yet another beautiful day again

:)

2006-04-09T11:57:00.000+08:00

The pictures I took of my hair are not very clear... So please bear with it. Here's the neat version. The reason why I say it's neat is due to the fact that it was BLOWN DRY..

My back view of the hair. Messy version & usual version. Wahaha

My dad didn't realise that I cut my hair until I told him. It's so obvious but he didn't realise it. By the time he realise it, he was saying that I did chipped off a lot of my hair. Haha. Now cannot be long-hair ghost already.

:P

Happy Thots 6

2006-04-06T11:44:00.000+08:00

I just cut my hair yesterday.

It's shorter than usual. I went to Hair4U at Paragon. The service is superb and I do like how my hair looks like now.

Nowadays, my hairstyle is getting shorter & shorter. Haha.

I can don't spend such a long time on my hair already.

I overslept yesterday.

TMD.

I woke up at 9.35am. When I saw the time, I PRACTICALLY jumped out of my bed.

TSK TSK.

BLUR ME

& I had no time to dress up for yesterday's celebration.

Yesterday's celebration was fun. A small gathering for Linda's B-dae.

Almost had a smashing timing if not because of the strange guys who tried to be funny

TMD. Had to go away to another area so that we could avoid strange guys

STUPID!!

But it was still fun.

Had been so busy & also lazy to update

hahaha

will be back with my crazy antics soon :P

CHALET

2006-03-31T17:19:00.000+08:00

Off to the chalet

Luckily it stopped raining already

I am super sleepy but I dun think I will get to sleep too much

In the meantime, send ur birthday wishes to one of my baby sisters, frenie in advance.. ( actual one is on sun but will be celebrated in advance though )

happy 21st b-dae my cheeky sister

*MUACKS*

Intermission 3- Mixed Feelings

2006-03-29T10:46:00.000+08:00

I received a morning message this morning which jolted me up.

One of my friend's friend whom I had known briefly has just passed away yesterday.

She committed suicide.

I do not know how to react. In fact, I was at a loss of words. She's still so young and I know how her friends feel now.

They must be having so many questions in their head. Why didn't she informed me about her problems? Why didn't I show more concern for her?

Hearing this makes me realises that life is short when you don't treasure it.

I recently heard that one of my ex-work friends is pregnant with her first kid.

She has come a long way to finally getting married and having her own kid.

I still remember that there was this period of timing when there were so many rumors about her even when she was attached.

The rumors were very bad mainly because accordingly to the rumors, she met some of the guys up who were working in the same company but different departments for some gallivanting.

There were many people who shook their head in disapproval because it was deemed that she was craving for attention when her partner didn't give it to her.

Her reputation was going down the hill because the guys she slept with told someone whom we know.

Thankfully, there were friends who gave her advice and she started to treasure herself more. After about 2 years later she got married to her boyfriend.

Even though everyone knows that her current husband is very possessive but we were kind of happy for her that she stopped sleeping around.

I used to pity her because of her actions she was deem worthless by the guys. In a way, I am glad that she changed.

For that was her past, I am looking forward to see what the present & future holds for her and nobody is going to judge her for her past actions but her present actions.

You go gal.

After the hoo-ha, I know that my decision was the right one. I want to be around for my friend.

But there is always a limit that I can do if he cannot snaps out of it and thinks that I cannot do anything to understand his position.

I feel so helpless at times when I can't do anything. Maybe I am immature compared to him and I can't advise when I have not experienced or see alot of things.

Apparently, he doesn't know me well enough either

Thanks for showing your concern. I appreciate it

*Muacks*

Intermission 2 - Maturity

2006-03-26T21:49:00.000+08:00

I was upset & angry over the things that were said & mentioned.

I am not going to care anymore

Maturity comes at a cost

Happy Thots 4- My Girl & I

2006-03-20T22:29:00.000+08:00

I went to catch this movie last week with Cynthia. It was on my top of list of movies to watch because the movie has my favourite korean actress Song Hye Kyo in it.

Those who had watched Full House previously will know how adorable she is. Before watching it, I already had a rough idea about what the movie was about.

It's pretty typical in Korean style. Girl falls in love with Boy. Boy loves girl. Girl got terminal disease. Girl died. Boy can't forget her.

There are so many hilarious parts in it which keeps the movie going when it was starting to get boring. But there were many sad moments too. My heart wrenches and I felt very touched

It was a movie to remind me to also treasure what you have around you. In a way, I think we will never know what can happen to us or our close ones. It's hard to practise what we preach. But we can only try.

and yes, I did cry as usual.

:P

Intermission 1 - Right things to do

2006-03-19T01:09:00.000+08:00

It's always so logical to tell people to do the RIGHT THING. I am always so guilty of that. Telling people what to do the best for them.

But I realise that the most important thing is that the people realise themselves what is the right decision for them

**

Sometimes it is so difficult to put into words what to say. The kind of words that you already have in the brain but you just don't know what to say when you are in front of them. The kind of words that you wished that you had the courage to say when being confronted.

It got me thinking recently that it's so hard to do it even when you are strong emotionally. Because I think we are afraid of rejections and to appear vunerable. We all have the mentality to appear strong of people so that people dare not "bully" you.

There are times I think we wished to also know the answers to our questions in our head. But we will never know the answer because we never ask & assume.

Sometimes knowing the truth helps alot.

**

There are always people who potrays a self-image of themselves that they want the world to see but in actual fact they are not like that.

The outwardly strong, charming, humorous person that you portrays on the outside might deceive the rest

But I will never be deceived by it cause your actions in your behavior betrays of your vunerability, your diversion to work, your channeling of energy in other areas.

I am not good with words but all I can say is that

You are not alone

U still have me saying "GO GO JIA YOU!" My encouragement for you will never stop even when u r superman

I am still around if you need a friend around

*HUGS*

Happy Thot 3

2006-03-14T11:26:00.000+08:00

I have been lazing and still lazing & I am happy about it. Haha

Finished re-watching Full House and started on a new Korean Show which I was very thankful to Linda for borrowing it to me.

The new Korean show & full house are not really crybaby shows like previous Korean series which I had watched. Eg. Full House. I did cry at the last few episodes because you could totally relate to the heart pain of the characters and it was reflective of what we do go through in real life. But throughout, I was mostly laughing with the antics that the characters in the show does & that was why the phrase of GO GO JIA YOU comes about. Someone is going to hate me for saying this again :P

Sometimes watching such shows, it's a reminder to treasure who we have around you and not regret when we have lost.

***

I met up with my friend on last Thursday to have my fave food. I found myself enjoying the company and hope that it didn't end so soon even though it was close to midnight when I was being sent home. Silly me has forgotten to bring the keys as usual. DAMN.

I wanted to catch a movie on sat but in the end, it was too crowded when we decided too. Cynthia & I had already shopped through Orchard and I bought NOTHING at all.

It was just eating & window-shopping but I totally enjoyed it.

In fact, I am going to stay over at Cynthia's place this coming Friday. I am sure there will be hilarious stuff happening. hehe

I am going to a MEGA family gathering soon. It's to actually celebrate frenie's coming of legal age.

& I have crazy ideas about how to tekan her already. Muahahahahaha.

It's been a long while since we had a family chalet. I am going to enjoy this.

Silly frenie, I am going to offer my help as promised & that's all.

Happy Thot 2

2006-03-09T15:17:00.000+08:00

I decided to share my happy thots for 7 consecutive posts ( this is the second part) hoping that it would also help in bringing a smile across your face just as the incident has make me smile.

How's that for a change instead of hearing me grumble. hehe

I was home yesterday night. When I reached home, I saw my favourite dish of sambal prawns which got me smiling. My dad knows that it's my favourite dish too. I felt the warmth and the love from my dad.

Sometimes it's just the little things that makes alot of difference. My dad didn't have to buy me stuff to make me smile but his cooking of my fave dish did.

YUMMY!!

While I was online, I received a surprise sms from a guyfriend that got me smiling and it was sweet for me to find that there are people who are concerned and bothered to drop me a sms to check on how's current stuff.

For this issue, I totally agree that effort is really required to maintain a friendship.

I am just glad that it's not a one sided affair and that I got people to care for me.

For now, even when there are unhappy stuff going on in my life at various points in my life, I want to forget it

& remember the good ones which make me smile

It's easier to smile even over small little things :)

Go Go Jia You!!

Happy Thot

2006-03-08T16:33:00.000+08:00

Here's a happy thought to share.

Being with the friends whom you can be completely honestly while having dinner or even just shopping makes you appreciate that they are around with no need to have any fronts.

It just happened to me yesterday night with Cynthia & the group of friends.

I can't help feeling happier when there are good food around. I am a glutton at times :P

High Heels

2006-03-07T11:13:00.000+08:00

My feet are aching like mad.

Vanity comes at a cost.

Being tall doesn't mean that I dun wear high heels. I know I am already towering over people but it doesn't hurts to actually look at the reflection looking at the slim effects that heels can bring to my legs

Yes. I am damn vain to look at my legs when I am in heels. I always have this fetish for ladies who wears tight jeans with heels. It's always a turn on to see that slender legs with heels.

BTW, I AM STRAIGHT HOR!! hahahaha

Wearing heels and walking to so many places doesn't mean that my legs are spared the strain. I mean I loved the feeling of how it feels to prance around in heels but not for long because after a long day, my feet cannot tahan anymore.

I always wonder why wearing heels actually makes legs look longer & slimmer. I mean it's strange that heels help to do that. But of cos, I dun wear more than a certain amount of height for the heels. Eg. more than 3 inches. Later I really look like a giant.

There was once I saw this lady who wore a super duper high heels. That one I really applaud her cos she still can moved around so gracefully & also dance. But I did wonder how her feet feels at the end of the day too. Maybe she got more experience than me wearing heels so she won't feel the strain.

I sound so bimbotic saying that I actually look at my reflection when I am in heels. haha

In the meantime, I will still stick to heels because of looking good except that I will rub my legs with oil before I go to bed.

Weird Request

2006-03-06T21:57:00.000+08:00

I had a very weird request from one of my guy friends.

I was just sending our photos to him which was taken very long ago to him.

Then he asked me to send or show him the photos of guys which I had dated or was in a relationship before.

I was like "WHY!!!!!???? FOR WHAT????"

My reaction was big because I didn't see the reason why I should do that

He's always asking me strange things recently

Strange!!!!

**

On another note, results will be in soon on next monday.

It went ok & I did try

I might need to feel the butterflies soon again

hurhurhur

Wish me LUCK

2006-03-06T10:22:00.000+08:00

I am so freaking excited yet I got that kind of butterflies in my tummy.

I am so super rusty but I am just going to try my best

Wish me luck!!

Crying

2006-03-01T15:43:00.000+08:00

I saw a gal at a park sitting on a bench looking very sad.

Her eyes were red & swollen.

I saw used tissues by her side.

It was obvious she was crying alone with no one by her side

Her shoulders were drooping.

I could feel that sadness she was feeling.

We always face problems in different forms. Work, love, family & friends.

There are so many times that we are living in denial because we didn't want to face up with it. I have been there & done there too.

But I realise one thing, it's ok to cry now & it's ok to feel sad now and it's ok to feel the heart was broken. Because above all these, it's always a learning process for us to grow stronger.

I like to cry when I feel upset. I find it a release of my pent up frustrations without a need to look strong on the outside. Because sometimes I am tired of looking strong on the outside too.

But after crying, I always like to set resolutions or ways to solve it. It's not easy because I always fall back to it. But I try my best to follow through.

Just like I made a new resolution recently without me crying but just feeling disappointed in certain ways that it's a one-sided trying & that I know I will not try anymore. How many times can I be forthcoming which I seriously don't know the answer myself?

So far so good that I am following through without falling back on it. It's even better that I am able to fall asleep now. There are on & off dreams but I am smiling now.

Tired of trying

2006-02-28T17:33:00.000+08:00

I finally had a good sleep yesterday night. Maybe because I was too tired. Well, 2 guys asked me why I was tired of trying at the same time. Haha. Such a good timing

I didn't know how to put it to words. Maybe I am always such a silly gal who's always trying hoping to get an answer. Answer for everything and anything.

But somehow words didn't seems to come out easily as I have expected. I can be at loss of words at times too. I noticed that I have not been trying hard in many areas.

I am trying my best to take out that first step. In fact, I am already trying to step out of my comfort zone. That's one of the hardest things to do for anyone including me.

Maybe I have learnt how to let go that's why I can sleep. Or rather, it's because that being in a MSN orgy caused me to feel so lethargic. haha.

Sorry for not being coherent.. hehe. I am in a dreamy mode

Cowboybar 1st Anniversary

2006-02-27T10:35:00.000+08:00

It was a huge gathering for the bar's one anniversary. It did feels that the bar is more than a year old to me even though I joined in later in the new server and not the google group.

It was held in a secluded area and I meant that because it was the first time that I went to WEST side for chalet & in bukit batok too. I was very thankful that one of the tampines gang member decided to do me a favour by picking me up and also sending my sister & me back. THANKS ALOT HOR ZAL!! hehe

Well, rnc, zal & me reached about 4 plus in the evening and there was not many people around. We decided to play bowling and as usual my game sucks big time cos got all the good players lor. Hurhurhur. But it was sheer fun rather than just sitting around and I hope to improve my game though :)

I was glad to see many of the barflies around because there were some which I had not seen them for a while and it feels so nice to just catch up with them. I am glad that I decided to go & join them for this gathering.

There was booze around as usual. I even received a box of chocolates. Thanks to jazzy for the yummy chocolates :)

It was a great night out with laughter and bitching too with the final ending place at Tampines for supper. YUMMY!! I forgot to mention that the drive back home was a training ground for KTV. Haha. Finally rnc & I got our wishes for supper. Haha.

Happy 1st Year Anniversary!!

On leave

2006-02-24T23:31:00.000+08:00

I was on leave today. *Yipeeeeee*

It was to catch my breath & re-charge my battery. My heart was *ahems* broken when C called me last min to tell me that he couldn't meet me because he was unwell. Partly, I took leave because that was the only time I could see him. Guess that I was meant to be disappointed.

I met up with Just today for breakfast and we actually had much fun together for such a short period of time despite the initial misunderstanding of waiting for each other even though he was at my house downstairs. I was actually smiling from ear to ear because he just makes me laff after the breakfast.

I called my cousin & meet up with her earlier to go to orchard road. Well, I ate all my favourite food today which includes fried beef kway teow, bon bon rocher ice-cream & curry chicken noodles. Yum Yum

We were irritating each other about many stuff. In fact, I always think it's nice to spend time with her after such a long period of time of not meeting up. There are so many things we can say & things we cannot say also will be said. Haha. Eg. Double meaning jokes & admiring at cute guys & also gossiping about spotting gays for the fun of it.

I am looking forward to having more fun soon with her again & maybe *coughs* someone whom I have heard so much but have not met :P

PAINFUL!!

2006-02-22T09:41:00.000+08:00

My legs are already full of scars but I just added additional scars on my left knee caps

My body is feeling the pain and I hate to say it's because of my clumsiness that caused the fall.

It's nice to feel being fuzzed at my parents and sisters showing their concern. But it seriously SUCKS cause it really hurts

While I was in the bus today, I was being very careful trying not to have the scar touched by anyone after my dad had applied the medicine on it. But due to several factors, eg. the bus was very crowded, I was being caught in between with no space to move, people are in a rush to leave the bus and then they decided to target my poor leg without caring how my poor leg feels by moving recklessly around me.

My medicine was being rubbed off abit and my poor leg screamed in agony. Irritating right?

In the meantime, let me wallow in self pity.

OUCH!!!

FoCuSing

2006-02-21T12:24:00.000+08:00

I have been having terrible sleep. It's that kind of restless sleep that keeps me waking up again & again.

No dreams but just have things on my mind that is keeping me awake.

I think too much at times I guess

But I have already learnt how to accept many things without questioning why anymore.

I am just tired of everything. But I have decided to find my focus again soon.

I hope that in the midst of finding it, I will not get lost again.

Learning

2006-02-18T14:06:00.000+08:00

I am always learning new things

& I found something to learn again

It's not easy in fact especially when I am weak at it or have no idea about.

I will post it up once I succeed

:P

Alone

2006-02-16T10:21:00.000+08:00

I was given the night off because I was not feeling very well yesterday. In fact, I was already out of the house already when it was cancelled. I went to the mrt station to top up my ezlink card instead.

The best things that can happen to me is taking your own sweet time strolling back. I was tempted to call someone out for a coffee.

But I decided not to & treasure that short period of time alone.

Being alone at selective timings is not a bad thing at all.

**

I have deliberated before continuing. Maybe it's because that I already know the answer that I decided not to make myself thinking of what if.

In the past, I would have done anything or everything to just know the what ifs in my life. As time goes by, that kind of courage to do so starts to slow down. Maybe I am not as courageous anymore.

Sometimes, the telltale signs are so obvious for me to see to not even ask. But of cos there are times which I am wrong which is very seldom. Maybe it's just me that is skeptical about so many things in life too.

I might or might not risk it anymore.

A Chore

2006-02-15T11:03:00.000+08:00

It was a chore to wake up today. Yes. I gotten myself high due to the last 2 glasses of Martell.

Dinner was home-cooked fish & chips by Linda. Linda is really a good cook. I was licking my lips in glee after eating it. It tastes as good as the ones that are sold outside. Anyway, I didn't do much except staying in the living room watching my lovers in paris show. Haha

After deciding to just chill out in front of the tv having tequila pops, we decided to play some drinking games. Erm, I am ok throughout until the last 2 glasses that I drank which was very thick. Linda kena abt 3 to 4 times in a row.

We laughed, giggled, tease each other with crude jokes at times. It was a really good way to just chill out. I managed to get 1 of my favourite song through Linda and after that my message centre number was gone. haha. Only this morning when I called the call centre before it was finally ok & I could start smsing again

I went home close to 2 plus and only slept at close to 4am. When I woke up this morning, I feel like just staying in bed. I know I have a very long day today with meet ups with my classmates and also clubbing.

Somehow or rather, I just feel like keeping to myself today but it will not be.

*yawns*

painful arm

2006-02-14T16:16:00.000+08:00

My left arm hurt very badly yesterday. In fact, it was very painful when I tried to lift it up or when I tried to stretch it. Thankfully because of my dad, it was so much better. He actually helped me to apply the cream and also massage it. I find him so sweet.hehe

The meet-up with the original guy [Tat Mr. Ang is too busy to meet me] on Sunday was switched with another friend for lunch. In fact, I was back very late on Saturday and so was my friend. But we actually make an effort to see each other for lunch the next day because he got golf lessons in the late evening. I was very tired in fact.

My friend and I have a history of not being able to see each other because our schedules always clashes even when we arrange 1 week in advance. I would say it was an enjoyable day out with him because he makes me feel at ease with him. I am glad that I found such a good friend in him that we could talk about a lot of things without feeling embarrassed.

The day is almost over. I am looking forward to the dinner already.

Hope everyone will enjoy this day even if you are single.

Clubbing too much

2006-02-13T15:11:00.000+08:00

I just got commented by a guy friend that I club too much. I only go twice a month. A lot meh? Sometimes, it is for birthdays and sometimes it is just for me to just party and shake my booties. Or even going for drinks to wind down and relax.

I did not even know that my behavior is such a cause for concern and that it is such a wonder this has become an issue between my friend and I. I think it's so funny though. Haha. But of course, I also know that he has my health & well being to think of. hurhurhur. All the puffy eye bags and all the late nights preventing me to rest properly.

I realise that this is not the first time got people so concerned about me going clubbing. Haha. There was another guy who was also concerned about it. But his was a different type of concern because he doesn't like to go there and expects his gf to do the same. I wasn't even his gf then and I think it is not fair leh. It doesn't mean if you dun want to go, your gf cannot go. But then again since when life was fair. haha

But I have been cutting down alot of my night activities because mainly I am terribly afraid that I aged older faster due to lack of sleep. I want my face skin to still look ok if not the same if I maintain properly. In fact, I am trying to sleep earlier too provided that I can sleep. I am very vain. Haha

I can also foresee my night life going to be non-existent soon in a few years time when I am sick & tired of it. Haha. I wonder will I get tired of it though :P

Program on Valentine's Day

2006-02-10T11:40:00.000+08:00

I got a program on Valentine's Day.

I am sure everyone is so happy for me.

But but... It's a small gathering to cook & eat while gossiping at Cynthia's place.

hehe.

Still, I am very happy to spend it with good friends :)

BTW: anybody got lovers in paris vcds to lent me? I am hooked on the show :P

Freaking Frustrated

2006-02-07T16:10:00.000+08:00

I feel so freaking frustrated.

When you make a mistake, you don't push back the problem back to me.
As a working partner, you are supposed to come up with solutions not the other way round
There must be flexibility and not being rigid in whatever situation we are in
For goodness sake, whatever I had requested, please keep to it and not go back on your words
There are alot of situations which I can foresee it happening again and again

I want to spew vulgarities. Finally, it's settled. But it left me brimming with anger and being upset.

Irritated Easily

2006-02-07T10:03:00.000+08:00

I am super bored at work now. But I have things to do. It's just that I do not know what to do.

Arghhhh. I am looking forward to my bed at home again as usual.

Because I was super bored, I just went through my history of msn conversations today.

It made me laugh and also feels nostalgic.

There were some conversation orgies with sexual content in it and some conversations were all about bitching in it.

Those were the good old times with friends.

I like to look back to savour the good memories. Call me a sentimentalist

I am having my mood swings and my tolerance towards certain things has lessen.

I am easily pissed off and just a warning of caution, I might just yelled at you if you did something to piss me off.

I just feel misunderstood at times. I used to want to clarify & make things right but I also realise that I can only try so much.

After a while, I realise that there's no need to try because I was being forsaken when I was not being believed in.

In fact, I decided to just act according to my conscience.

Sorry for the ramblings & grumblings that you all have to take from me.

I am just any other usual girl who feels tired in certain points in life.

Maybe it's because of blogging out how I really feel that's why I can stay my happy go lucky self.

Take care dearies too :)

Back to Work

2006-02-06T12:53:00.000+08:00

Just plain tired from all the walking from Johor Bahru on last Friday.

Caught a movie, eating, window shopping, shopping & eating again.

I think it was a very fun time with me buying shoes again and also alot of stuff which I just bought for fun. I did a lot of walking despite my foot's skin was peeled badly. I was also jumping from the pain but then I forced myself to put my foot down.

My holidays are over already and I am back from work.

All the visiting that has to be done is almost done. The chinese new year is going to be over soon. I guess it will be a long time since I will be able to take such a long break.

I am hooked on a new game "Maple Story" which was introduced by my younger cousin. I am a bit slow to actually start on this game but heck lah I am just playing to kill time at home. I found a barfly there though. Haha.

I suddenly wish to stay at home more often after this holiday.

But I still miss alot of u gals ( u should know who u r) after not seeing you gals for so many days.

:)

Ladies Night at Devils Bar

2006-02-03T01:47:00.000+08:00

After so much snacking & eating from the New Year and since that I have a off day from work the whole week, my friends decided to go out for some hot clubbing action.

The funniest thing was that we did alot of walking because China Jump was closed and we got off at the wrong bus stop when we were on our way to Devil's Bar.

I feel like I am from the countryside because it was a long time since I went to Devils. The entrance has been changed. The decor has changed abit at the first level.

I dare not drink so much yesterday because of the previous poisoning case. I only had 2 glasses of vodka and 2 beers. Thank god my tummy was ok this time.. hehehe

We had two mature guys approaching us to talk to us. I was not very worried about the first guy when he came over because he had gal pals with him. He was actually quite nice and I thought he had his eyes on my friend because the gals were nudging him. Whahahahahaha. I like the expression of his face. Too bad, he looks old enough to be my father.

The second guy who is likely to be from China was very irritating. He went over to one of my friends and told her that her eyes are very beautiful and her complexion is very good. WTH!! Can come out with something more original than these silly lines.

Of all places, he had to block me from seeing the band performing. And when I wanted to leave to another place nearby, he block me from leaving. I seriously dun know what he wants lor. Tsk tsk. We went off to get some beer and then we shifted to another area where we are free from his nonsense.

When people want to watch the band and dun wished to talk, he just didn't get it and continued with his nonsense. Irritating assholes.

But it was really nice and fun to party and be able to wake up late without going to work. Hehe. The holidays are going to be over. Somehow, I am not very looking forward to starting work.

Off to JB today later :)

The Best Date Evar - Part 2

2006-02-02T17:42:00.000+08:00

The second best date I had was with my first love after we got together. It was supposed to be our first official date together after I agreed to be with him. It was a very long long time till now. I almost thought I had forgotten how it was like. Haha.

I still remembered that I was having a hard time putting on my contacts lens in my ex work place. It was supposed to be the first time that I had wore it after I tried it. I didn't want to be late but I had a hard time trying to wear it too. I wanted to look good for him by not wearing my glasses.

We went to Siglap Centre for dinner at Cafe Cartel. I still remember what we both ate. I know I can be such a sentimental fool sometimes. I had carbonara while he had a burger which was HUGE and also potato wedges. As most of my closer friends know by now, carbonara remain one of the favourtites till today.

I was enjoying myself with all the butterflies flying in my stomach. My stomach was in knots. I was also nervous at that time. The only thing I remembered was that we shared alot of things and we were having alot of fun together.

After dinner, we were very full and we decide to take a walk instead of him sending me home imediately. During the stroll, I found out alot of things which I never knew before about him and that was also the first time we held hands. I feel like a school gal all over again. Because it was at night, it seems romantic to hold hand in hand strolling chatting endlessly with the breeze blowing into our faces while we walked ahead.

We decided to take a break and took a bus to send me back after that. That kind of happiness and joy cannot be replaced even though it was a very short time spend together during the date.

It was peaceful and I totally enjoyed it at that time. We did went there again and did the same stuff again. In fact because of this, Siglap area always hold wonderful memories for me because of him and sometimes even after we broke up, I always tried to fill Siglap with other memories of friends besides his.

I am sure that he still remembered that date as much as I do because he ever did mentioned to me before after we broke up. We just like to remember sweet stuff and this is one which I will totally hold it close for remembrance :)

Clarifications: Holding on good memories is good even when it's over and doesn't mean that you are not over with it :)

Weird Photo

2006-01-30T21:05:00.000+08:00

My sisters and I decided to pose for funny pictures when we are so bored of eating and snacking.

When I look at this, I just want to laff..

We just looked silly.. haha

POISONED

2006-01-28T17:06:00.000+08:00

My runs to the toilet got worse on Friday morning itself. I woke up at 4plus in the morning to just rush to the toilet.

I couldn't ignore it at all with my body showing the symptons that I was being poisoned either by food or drinks. I had to cancel my appointments with Jaywalk and Jaschocolate for dinner and drinks. Hope I can meet you all soon.

After I had seen the doctor, I went to office for a while to clear my work before heading home to rest. I was home slighty before noon and thankfully the medicine from the doctor helped!!

I was lazing in my sister's bed watching Full House which got me laughing, crying and smiling. Thanks xiaxia for being with me & make me feel that I was not alone & introducing such a nice show to me. *BIG SMILE*

I got a surprise sms from a dearie who showed concern. Sweet!!!

Gong Xi Fa Cai everybody in this year of the dog which I am born in.. Let's bitch :P

Alcohol Poisoning

2006-01-26T17:17:00.000+08:00

It's official.

I declare myself to be suffering from Alcohol Poisoning.

This is a good reason to escape from drinking tonight and tomorrow evening.

I am feeling weak from going to the ladies the whole day. This seldom happened but I do not know why I am suffering from the runs. I am supposed to go clubbing today after dinner with 2 girlfriends but I am skipping the clubbing & will be heading home after the buffet. If not because I have already promised, I would have already skipped home directly or rather rolled back home.

In fact, I realise that my body cannot take as much alcohol as last time. The past 2 times I drank had the same results of me running to the loo but not as frequently as today. I have decided that I will try my best to not drink so much alcohol. This might result me getting high easier and also getting drunk easier but for my body's sake. This is nothing.

So my dear friends (esp those I am meeting on Fri), I dun mind partying with you but dun jio me to drink so much :P

Luckily I am not vomiting.. hurhurhur

Stranger

2006-01-26T12:51:00.000+08:00

I look at the person that was once looking at me. I couldn't recognise the person anymore.

Is this person whom I thought that I had understand & grasp becomes another person which I didn't know? Was it a mask that was hiding the true emotions of this person? Or that I had all along been wrong about?

Is it because I got nothing useful to be make use of that's why I am redundant now? Isn't it strange that I am being treated as a stranger now?

Is it because that I had been lied to not once not twice but thrice that's why I am so afraid about the actual reason I am being lied to?

Do we communicate because we got no other choice or do we even communicate now?

I am just disappointed in the behavior...

Food for thought

2006-01-24T21:25:00.000+08:00

I have not been cooking frequently. But about two weeks back, I decided to brush up my rusty skills by cooking fried mee hoon.

I took a few pictures of my cooking. It was tough because of the fact that I was cooking 2 packets of mee hoon.

Fresh from the wok. I had my dad's help in the later after that cos I was having a terrible time stirring up the mee hoon

My lunch that day with fried chicken. I had put eggs shreds and fried shallots for garnishing

How to cook the mee hoon that is perfect to me.

Trick one in cooking fried shallots was to put some salt at the ending part when the shallots are turning brown. This is to make sure that the shallots are even in colour. BTW, the shallots will taste saltish. Yummy!!!

Trick two is to put luncheon meat cubes in the mee hoon because I simply love luncheon meat and it has added flavour to the mee hoon.

Trick three is to have "colour"& fibre in the mee hoon is to put cabbage, carrots & bean sprouts in it.

I missed eating mee hoon...........................................

The Best Date Evar - Part 1

2006-01-23T21:42:00.000+08:00

Since I have recovered very well from the worst date.hahaha. Serendipity gave me a great idea to blog about the best date I have ever went on to. But since there are many nice dates I have been to & I can't decide between 2 dates which is the best. I will talk about it both in 2 entries.

**

He was someone I knew from the club. He is one of the most *coughs* handsome guys I ever dated. He was an expat from Hongkong. He is a lawyer who used to work in the U.S.A. He is a very persuasive man.

The first date we met up was due to his continuous persuasion to see each other after that hawt dancing night at a club with him. He wanted to eat japanese food at the Oriental Hotel. We arrange to meet there at about 7pm. I waited for him for a while only before we met up.

Well, I have forgotten which restaurant we went to. As usual, I am not good with names of restaurants. We waited outside for a while and when we were being attended, we were told that we had to be seated at the bench facing the chefs instead of having our own tables. Luckily after he insisted and the manager came over & arrange a table for us. BTW, the table is freaking big and apparently the manager claimed that he didn't want us to be seated there because many people passed by the sideways of our table. I bet my last dollar that if I had went with a Singaporean Guy, the restaurant might have turned us away.

But since I was not very hungry, we both only had some food. The sushi was good though and I don't remember the price for it too. We were very caught up with chatting about each other and he suggested that we shift over to a bar to continue our chit-chatting.

We went to Westin and went to the lounge for drinks. The place that we got to be seated at was facing the skyline of Singapore. It was a very nice top view of the city with a great companion around to make you feel nice & cozy. It was really a romantic evening.

We talked about alot of things like why he came over from the US to Singapore instead of moving back to Hongkong and what are his future plans. I can't help but to steal glances at him at certain times because he was really an eye-candy.

Before we knew it, it was very late and since both of us got to work the next morning. We make a move to go home. Before we left, I took a final glimpse of the night view again and somehow I was wishing that someone else was with me instead of him.

Although we did meet up with each other a few times after that, this date takes the cake for him making me feel comfortable, making me feel that we are par, making me feel cozy and making me that tinge of romance.

The sad thing is that although he was cute & charming, he didn't make my heart skip a beat when I see him. But he left me with a very nice memory which I will remember

:)

There will always come a time.....

2006-01-22T14:55:00.000+08:00

There will always come a time when I am at a loss of what to do next.

There will always come a time when I burried myself in activities to keep my mind wandering

There will always come a time when I am sick and tired of my surroundings

There will always come a time when I do not know what the guys in my life want me to do or react

There will always come a time when I do not wish to care about anything

There will always come a time when I just wish that I am more committed in what I want to achieve to do

There will always come a time when I just wish to remember the good memories and forget about the bad memories.

There will always come a time when I do not wish to communcicate and make any efforts at all.

There will always come a time when I just wish that I can oblivious to the surroundings.

There will always come a time when I just hope that I can be weak and not be strong anymore

But there will always come a time when I am just plain thankful with what I have and who I have in my life

:)

My dream with Grandpa in it

2006-01-19T14:49:00.000+08:00

A weird thing happened to me yesterday night.

I dreamt about my deceased grandpa.This dream felt so real to me that I thought it wasn't a dream at all

He was looking like he was healthier and stronger than before he was ill. I heard news from frenie [my younger sister] that he could talk. She was crying when she told me the news before she ran off in tears. The reason being that he would be telling us his last words & that he is going to pass away.

I was shocked by what was being said. I went back to their old home that were just besides me to look for him.He was just in one of the rooms and when I saw him again. He was just there giving me a slight smile. He was talking like what frenie was describing. But he is not supposed to be able to talk.

At the thought that he would pass away after he has told us his words that he wanted to express, I felt like crying. He stroked my hair & my face. But all I could remember from what he said to me was that I looked like my younger cousin, which is strange.

I only remember that we were all prepared to face the fact that he was going to die because he could talk compared to previously. But I was hoping against hope that he would just live.

I remember going back to see my grandpa straight after I came back from home. I was always happy to see him alive. Two days passed & he was still alive

And then I was awoken up suddenly to go off to work. The images of him is still fresh in my head.

I miss my grandpa.

The Worst Date Ever - MEME

2006-01-17T23:18:00.000+08:00

I have been very curious recently about which is the worst date that the friends around me have attended. I am very sure that there are always very interesting tibits & gossip to share. This is not meant to be embarrassing for either party but rather something we can learn not to commit.

**

I have dated a few guys before and I have met many different type of guys too who have always been very sweet to me by certain actions.

This happened quite sometime ago but I was being reminded about it by my friend today. Honestly, all the dates that I had went usually are seriously nice & enjoyable even though there isn't advancements in the relationships.

But this guy seriously takes the cake for making me remember him in a very funny & weird way.

We were supposed to meet at city hall at 7. But somehow he was being caught up at work and was late. I was not really pissed about him being late. I was window-shopping and was not buying any things at all. I was calling certain friends to entertain me while waiting for him to arrive & I had calls that went unanswered.

By then, I received a sms from him that he has arrived. I went to citylink mall to find him. We made small chat about it and I was being pissed of with certain things he said that seems rather insensitive and looks down on my current job. He was mentioning about doing admin jobs as something being easy & that they are very free at work.

My blood was boiling when I heard that sentence. I told him off that my job doesn't only evolve around administration work and also other work too. I was quite turn off by what he mentioned. Then my friend returned my call. I was on the phone while walking through the citylink mall with him. We walked & walked towards Marina Square & my phone rang again. This time, it was my engineer to enquire about work.

There were times where I tried to settle the call a.s.a.p so as not to ignore him totally. Then I will be the one who caused the worst date of his life. Haha. Anyway, while I was on the phone, he decided to go to the food court & plant himself there.

I was surprised by his actions. Because he didn't ask what I wanted to eat at all and just decided for me. After I put down the phone, he asked me to go & buy my food first. I was appalled by it because he didn't even ask what I wanted to eat & where would I want to eat.

I know I am abit pampered but I do not expect guys to always buy me dinner & go to high class restaurants for dates. I am fine with dining in hawker centres & food courts as long as you open your golden mouth & ask.

I was getting very pissed off more & more till I felt like cutting short the date. It doesn't helps that he was getting on my nerves for showing his stingy side. I mean I can go dutch on dates but this is less than 10 bucks for a meal. Can't help it but to feel that he's a miser.

I cut short the date giving work as an excuse & guess what the guy expressed an interest in me through sms by asking whether I felt chemistry with him. Now I know why he keeps asking me what's my criteria for a boyfriend.

Erm, interested in me but dun want to put effort for me? He can slowly wait. He just gave me the shivers down my spine the wrong way. Maybe I have been over-pampered by certain guy friends. But I don't expect this from every guy though. If you like a girl, you need to put in effort lor.

But that was also the first time I actually cut short a date to go home without having my dinner & I lost my appetite for my food because of that. It takes 2 hands to clap to make it enjoyable. Somehow we didn't have chemisty which is of COS.

& he also make me realise that I have to open my eyes bigger next time :P

***

Now for the below-mentioned people, please write it because I would LOVEEEEEEE to know the juicy bits

Nadnut
Missy
Serendipity
Jaywalk
Sunshine

I am very KPO.

Muahahahaha

Share........................

Weird Meme

2006-01-13T23:21:00.000+08:00

Sorry that I took a while before I could do this meme which I was being targeted at by 2 people, sunshin3 & jaywalk about weird things that I do.

This is really bad because I have been scratching my head non-stop thinking about it about what are the weirdest things that I have done.

Be prepared for the very worst. Muahahahahaha

1. I have a very bad habit of grinding my teeth while I am sleeping at certain times. I know it's not good at all & I have heard that it's bad literally in terms of superstitions.

2. I got a very bad cravings for chocolates not for the whole year but only in specific months. U guys should wat I mean lah. This is also the period I will eat chocolates non-stop. Tat's bad because I will put on weight :(

3. My thumbs can be bend till quite far backwards than the usual bending of thumbs an average person can do. There's one more weird person whom I happened to know that can do this too... Nadnut

*twiddle thumbs*

4. I like to walk alone when on the way home. I like company but I also like it when I am alone with my mp3 playing songs with me humming along with it. It gives me a tranquil of peace

5. I am so afraid of something which is something I will never let u guys know. Muahahaha....

Honestly, I can't think anymore

Off to bed for now

*Yawns*

Dinner with Ex-Classmates

2006-01-13T13:04:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a cozy dinner with some of my ex-classmates and we also had bowling activities after that. It was a night of many laughter, teasing & the most important part is catching up on each other's lives.

I am glad that some of us are making an effort to actually meet up once a month although it seems little comparing to the fact that we used to see each other at least twice a week. Maybe it's because we have kept in touch throughout which doesn't make us drift apart. I still hope the arrangements stays.

While on the way back home with one of classmates, we were chatting about the year ahead & what would we be doing in the near future. I realized that I have not really decide about many things all of a sudden when I was being asked what do I want to continue from now. I do not have the answers at all. I still feel like trying out new things but the question is which area & in what?

I need to do lots of stuff now at the back of my head & I have to really start doing it after the chinese new year. I am still hesitating whether I should ask for a certain favour from my ex-boss.

I have to remember to "FOCUS". With commitments, it comes with responsibility

FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cowboy's wedding & Grumblings

2006-01-11T14:55:00.000+08:00

Going to cowboy's wedding was a very good reason for me to get away from the hustle bustle of Singapore. To spend it with certain people whom I dearly love was really a bonding experience

Seeing cowboy's silly grin on his face & the joy on his face were sufficient to make the people around him feel that love he had for his wife. After all marriage is really a sacred thing to me. A perfect wedding is like just the icing on the cake which is the marriage. I am sincerely happy for him & also thanks for the invitation to attend such a joyous occasion. Best Wishes Cowboy!!

**

A certain friend of mine called me recently. To be honest, my resolve was being shaken but I decided not to pick up the call. I just want to be left alone. I am happy with my current life & I do not wish to feel upset again & again after all the hurt that was being inflicted on me.

I do not wish to cry anymore. My heart was being broken but let's leave it as that. Call me a bitch for being so heartless but the knife that was stabbed in me is good enough to stay away. A chance was given before & it was thrown away. Do not act PR in front of me. Beneath the smile, where's the sincerity? Is there a knife beneath it? I hope not

Our lives have each moved on in parallel lines never to touch again. Isn't it good enough? Cos it's good enough for me

Good Bye

Audio Blog for the Second Time - Dancing

2006-01-10T13:33:00.000+08:00

Finally...

I have recorded again. Please bear with me the heavy breathing again & also lazy voice & my phony accent. I recorded this in the middle of the night.

It's a short entry about silly ramblings about dancing

Audio from winter66 (Jan 9, 2006) (02:57) by winter66

dun laff!!!!! :P

Trip to JB soon

2006-01-04T11:49:00.000+08:00

The gift is in someone's hands who will appreciate my thoughts in buying it.

I am looking forward to this weekend. Looking forward to spend it with people whom I love & their company.

It will be a gathering again with girly chats & banter.

Will I be disappointed with the answer given? I pray not

I hope I won't get lost in JB with my road idiotness.

Shopping soon. Hahaha. My favourite hobby.

I need a break

Seriously need it to be away from work.

contented

2006-01-03T00:56:00.000+08:00

I just heard a good news from one of my friends that one of the guys I was with for a brief period of time had gotten married recently.

I was not as surprised & as shocked as I thought I would behave like the last time (Tat's why I say it's GOOODIE news. hehe). I finally heave a sigh of relief for him that he sorted out his problems already in a certain way. It's just too bad that I couldn't extend my best wishes to him personally cos we have lost contact.

I really hope he's happy now.

***

A new year has just started. I have not set any resolutions yet. Maybe setting resolutions is not just good enough. I prefer to set short term targets which I think I can achieve for now instead.

Time flies very fast & sometimes before we know it, another year has just flown by. I like to look back each year and know that I had accomplished something in that particular year whether it's big or small.

I cleared a part time diploma for the year 2005 in Marketing & Sales Management finally in additional to my existing diploma in Microelectronics. To me, it was a milestone of my life.

I have already set out my next target this coming year. I hope I will not lose focus in the midst of this.

Happy Holidays!!

*Pssssssst: 3 Working Days this week only. Yippeeeeeeee

Scattered Thoughts

2005-12-28T11:20:00.000+08:00

I had fun doing the audio blog earlier & I had quite a number of feedback of how I have sounded & also advice how to improve it. Thanks alot. I will be coming up with another audio entry soon by this week. Hopefully, this time round I will not be so nervous & use all the advice given. Watch out for it though. hahaha.

Everyone has been writing about their Xmas programs that they had. Yes, I had fun not because of the activities done but because of the company that I shared. Thanks gals for making it memorable. I loved the presents given. Thanks :)

It felt very strange talking to him in the beginning. It's like we used to share so much more but now we share nothing

It's just feels weird that we used to be able to talk about anything under the sky but now we talk about mundane stuff like how his work is & how busy he is.

It's just feels good to know that despite the awkwardness, we care for each other in a certain way. Will he put me in second place again compared to his clients?

But I hope to catch up with him face to face since it has been a few months ago already since I last saw him.

We shall see.

Audio Blog for the First Time

2005-12-24T11:50:00.000+08:00

This is the first time I am trying this out.

Please forgive that there were alot of clearing throats in it. Hahahaha

& Dun fall asleep hearing it tooo :P

V001.WAV

Berry Merry Christmas!!!

Drinking & Working

2005-12-21T16:06:00.000+08:00

Lesson I Learnt Today

Never drink red wine while you are at work

Never drink more than 3/4 of a glass

Never drink it quickly

Because there will be repercussions like feeling extremely sleepy

Do not drink & work

Changes & Secret Agents' Meeting

2005-12-20T17:55:00.000+08:00

I have been busy busy busy not only with work & also with friends.

Many things have been running through my mind about work

Also that there will be slight changes too.

I am hoping the transition will be smooth

I have finally met up with 2 blog authors that I had been *ahems* stalking their blogs last Saturday 17/12/05 for dinner because I gate-crashed in the secret agents' meeting.

One of them is AKK

The other one is Jaywalk.

Jaywalk was very sweet to actually suggest that he picked nadnut & me to the dinner place even though he stayed on the other side of Singapore. It was a very extremely rare opportunity that he was in Singapore & how could this chance be missed not to meet him. He picked me up exactly at 7pm with me rushing out to remember to bring the chocolates that I had in my fridge & also the little small small gift that I had bought for him.

We then went over to pick up Nadnut before going over to Far East Shopping Centre to meet up with AKK for some nice beef dinner. We rounded up dinner with a very nice dessert on the menu called "Baked Alaska".

We ended up a pub near Amoy Street called "POD" which was opened by Jaywalk's friend. The bartender concocted a very nice cocktail which is green apple flavour. As usual, I am very bad with names & so I can't remember what's the exact name though. Luckily as usual, I sipped my drinks slowly before the bartender came over & told me that another customer of his whom is a gal had the drink & was knocked out when she got out of the bar. Tsk Tsk. Give me such a strong drink & want me to later kena knocked out right? hurhurhur. It's a good thing that I have this habit of drinking my alcoholic drinks slowly.

Nadnut & AKK left earlier without me. EVURL GALS!! hahaha. They both left because they had a valid reason too. I understand :)

First impressions of Jaywalk: I can understand why got so many gals "died" under his hands before with all his series. Hahahahahaha. He's someone who you can feel at ease with & especially gals because he will make you laugh again & again. Beneath the surface of this person, he is a DEEP one :P

First impressions of AKK: A very sweet next door gal whom I can understand why "A" is under her spell. She's someone who has very good blood circulations. hehe. Gal, you know why I said that. Haha. She's also a very funny person too in a different way.

It was a very well spent Saturday.

Groggy + BBQ + Xmas

2005-12-15T16:43:00.000+08:00

I was lazing in bed about 8.30pm onwards yesterday night.

My medicine really made me felt so groggy & sleepy till I couldn't concentrate what I was doing even at work yesterday.

It was such an innocent sneeze in the beginning with my boss teasing me that who is the one that wanted to scold me. I replied that I hope no one wants to scold me with me in this stage :(

After that, it got worse till Cynthia was saying that someone is thinking of me. Yah Right!! Laughing at me while I was catching my breath from my sneezing the whole of yesterday evening.

SO EVURL LOR!!!!! BOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOO!!!!!

Well, today was slightly better but I am still feeling groggy & I took a 1 hour nap during my lunch time while in my office. BTW, I will take my medicine because I want to get well before Saturday. I will get to meet finally a VVVVVVVIP & I have pushed away all the appointments to meet this person. If you know who I am referring to, please keep it a secret. Wahahahaha.. *winks*

On another note, I enjoyed myself alot for the BBQ that the 2 lovebirds had organised on Tuesday.

It was a fantastic night with quality food, wine, beer & many *ahems* dirty jokes. All the jokes got double meanings & you can't take it literally. But it was damn funny.

People got *ahems* tau pok, molested & also attacked. It's always fun to spend time with such fantastic company. I dare to say this is one of the best BBQ that I had attended.

Thanks for the invitation sweeties :)

Xmas is finally approaching.

I am looking forward to it :)

With great company for sure, I am looking forward to it

Stars in the Sky

2005-12-12T14:05:00.000+08:00

Alot of things in life are usually taken for granted.

Yesterday night while walking back from one bus-stop earlier just make me realised that.

For once in a very long time

I looked up in the sky

I saw stars twinkling in the dark sky

The stars have always been around me

but somehow I have forgotten about it.

It's time to look out for things that have been around me but have been neglected by me in a certain way

The stars in the sky just make me realise that.

Smile :)

Friends :)

2005-12-09T18:11:00.000+08:00

I was looking through some of the older emails in my inbox today in the earlier part today. I just felt that many things have changed already.

I also realised that I have changed abit with regards to my certain behaviour. It might be good & it might also be bad. I used to hold on to alot of memories. After being hurt very terribly not once by twice by a group of very close galfriends, I realise that friends are not forever.

Maybe when pride is not in the way, things might have happened differently. Do I regret for not giving a shot again after quite a while? Seriously, no. I might seems indifferent or even cold hearted. I have forgiven & also forgotten but things are not the same anymore. I am a real softie at heart & I am usually very moved very easily but when I have decided what I want to do & set my heart & mind to it, nothing can be really changed unless I am really convinced.

It's not that I do not treasure friends. I treasure them alot maybe sometimes too much. Besides the new friends I had in the bar which I totally adore, I am also trying very hard to maintain my current friends whom I missed alot too. That's also the reason why I try to even chat with them even though for a short while when both are busy.

But of course when the friendship turns to just one-way & neither is willing to made the efforts, it's time to move on. There are different friends for our different stages of our life. There are friends who are stayers which will be around you regardless of the good times & bad times. It's not easy to find this type of friends but I dare to say that I found at least 2 friends who are stayers. They have been around through ups & downs. Thanks Cynthia & Nicholle.

There are certain of my friends who have to wait for me to call them out because they claim that I am very busy & they have to fit in my schedule. The way it is being put across is like I am a busy woman who has no time for time. I used to be freaking busy with school but not now. Guess I still have to be on the initiating part..

Got to go now for some bowling...

Hugs & Kisses for those who deserved my love

Yawns

2005-12-07T11:17:00.000+08:00

Can I just smack those weird senseless dreams I have away?

I can't have a REAL good sleep because of that.

The worst or best thing is that I can't remember my dreams except that I woke up feeling weird & TIRED.

*Yawns*

Current Mood: Terrified of my phone having incoming smses

Too many things to do but dun know where to start